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发表于 2009-6-9 00:24:02
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前段时间做了个奇怪的梦,梦到父亲去世了,半夜惊醒时,发现自己已经泪流满面。拿起电话给家里打电话,妈妈问我怎么了这么晚打来电话,我才发现,原来,这只是个梦,只是个噩梦。可能是自己太想念父亲了。
但是自己却怎么也睡不着了,脑海里像放旧胶片电影一样,断断续续的片段不停的在眼前晃动。都是他慈祥的面庞,那个高大的身影。
躲在被窝里,想起自己好像已经有好长时间没和爸爸说过话了,每次给家里打电话的时候都是妈妈接,聊一会,然后就是和爸爸那公式版的对话:
“给你的钱还够花吗?”
“够,够了。”
“一切还好吧?”
“好着呢。没事的话,我就挂了?”
“好”
每次打电话都是按这个剧情来,我实在是想不出还有什么话能再多说一点,爸,你知道吗?
每次和你打电话的时候,我总是想告诉你,少吸点烟,对身体不好。总是想告诉你,你老出差,开车慢一点。总是想告诉你,你很忙,一定要按时吃饭,因为你的胃不好。总是想告诉你很多很多,但是正当和你在电话上说话的时候又无语了,不知道该说什么。
想起很多小时候的事,总是有很多时间和你在一起,和你一起玩扑克牌,一起出去烧烤,一起打电子游戏机,记得那时候你总是喜欢抱着亲我,我是受不了你满脸的胡渣。扎的我很难受,但是亲完以后,像变魔术一样,送我喜欢的东西,现在想起来,自己还是满脸的幸福。随着自己慢慢的长大,在你身边的时间也少了,你对我说的话也少了,你总是让我自己来做选择,自己学着慢慢长大,独立生活。谢谢您的用心良苦。您的话我全都记在心里。
如果成长的代价是注定要失去一些东西的话,我宁愿自己永远活在小时候。可以一直陪在你的身边。
父亲
有时候我很想低调
闭上眼睛,躲在人群后
可是总有你的手
轻轻在身后
对我说,忘了忧
背井离乡,风雨兼程
历尽坎坷,有梦向谁说
梦中牵着你的手
顶住在心头
我就会不低头
父亲的爱永在我身后
永远不会离开我
披星戴月的路上
我仰望着故乡
有一天,会回到你身边
像那花开的芬芳
萦绕在我心间
陪着我从昨天到明天
想到luther vandross的一首歌,《Dance With My Father》
back when i was a child
before life removed all the innocence
my father would lift me high
and dance with my mother me then
spin me around till i fell asleep
then up the stairs he would carry me
and i knew for sure i was loved
if i could get another chance
another walk
another dance with him.
i'd play a song that would never,ever end
how i love,love,love
to dance with my father again
when i and my mother would disagree
to get my way i would run from her to him
he'd make me laugh just to comfort me
then finally make me do just what my mama said
later that night when i was asleep
he left a dollar under my sheet
never dreamed that he would be gone from me
if i could steal one final glance.
one final step
one final dance with him
i'd play a song that would never,ever end
'cause i love,love,love
to dance with my father again
sometimes i'd listen outside her door
and i'd hear how my mother cried for him
i pray for her even more than me
i pray for her even more than me
i know i'm praying so much too much
but could you send back the only man she loved
i know u don't do it usually
but dear lord she's dying
to dance with my father again
every night i fall asleep this is all i ever dream
拿出钱包,里面夹层里是以前一起去爬山时拍的父子照。很喜欢的一张照片。看着看着迷迷糊糊的又睡着了。
似乎又回到了小时候,和你一起去钓鱼
傍晚时分
你的大手拉着我走在小路上
夕阳洒在我们的身上
一直往前走。 |
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